Day 282

Today's photo inspiration is #hugs

A picture with my buddy Bernard right after my surgery. People ask what they can do for breast cancer awareness. Try being a real friend. A kind word..a visit or call..some gentle hugs. They all go a long way in showing support. Thank God for my friends.

Pains, Drains and Automobiles

Going in to week 2 post surgery I'm realizing that pain will probably be my constant companion for awhile. Even with the morphine and valium and myriad of other drugs I've been taking to keep it at bay its still always here to a certain degree and I guess that's normal. And while I am a self described "pain wimp" I have had my share of experiences that maybe the average person wouldn't be able to handle. That includes child birth, hernia surgery, having all 4 of my wisdom teeth pulled with just local anesthesia and having my right leg broken in 15 different places along with compound fracture.

I guess all those incidents have made me stronger to a certain degree but I still realize I have a very low tolerance for pain. And double mastectomy pain? well..not sure there are any words to describe it except to say it's been arguably the worst of them all.  I do realize that alot of it is emotional/mental pain at the thought of this new body cancer has so callously sculpted and there is no amount of morphine in the world that can heal that.

One bright note, if there is one is that one major source of pain was somewhat alleviated by "installing" a third drain on Friday because clearly life wasn’t interesting enough with just two tubes and grenades hanging from my body. Lucky for me my post surgical garments come with roomy pockets to fit all of them..fancy huh?

On a side note, I wanted to give big thanks to Tahisha, Beverly, Danielle, Nicole, Hector and Chamberlain for going out of their individual ways to get me to my doctor appointments and to all the friends who have been driving me around, running errands, coming to visit and bringing me food.  Looks like I will have at least 2 doctor appointments a week for quite awhile and probably wont be able to drive on my own for another 3-4 weeks so as absolutely annoyed that I cant be my usual independent self I will still have to rely on the kindness and availability of my friends.

In the meantime, enjoy the rest of the weekend and look out for a good news report coming soon. :)

Love and Light

Asabi

Day 243

Today's photo inspiration is #thank you.

Just a snippet of some of the generous get well gifts I've been receiving. So to all my wonderful friends...thank you..thank you..#thank you! !!

Happy Blogaversary to me!!!

Well... well... well... who would have thought I still would be doing this after my first post a year ago?

Not me!! But here I am 107 posts later. And while I can be pretty lazy with the timing of my entries and I probably won’t win any literary awards, I do think blogging has challenged me to be more introspective and has given me the creative outlet I so desperately needed.

More so than anything I am grateful for the chance to be a part of my community of talented blogger friends (Ginger, Lex, Jay, Nichole, Kenn and Rashad) who have made this site a much cheaper form of therapy. You “get” me and thank you for that. So for you and the other 3 people that read this nonsense do me a favor and let me know what some of your favorite posts were this year.

And please continue to comment. This is after all a purely ego driven endeavor so I need to know you are out there. And that you like me….you really really like me.

Namaste.

I'm not Hating..But

Bloggers who admittedly hate to blog but get national recognition anyways.. SUCK! They are like the math geeks in school everyone hated because they always claimed Math was sooo hard for them but they got a A+ on every test.

I'm Not Hating... I'm Just Saying :)